My whole life I have searched for answers. I had no faith, I had no dreams, I had no desires. I was lost in the vastness of the world. With all its torments, all its demons and all its chaos. From an early age I knew things, things that would come to pass, for me and my children and for society as a whole. I surely did not want to see them. I did see visions of my future but it didn't make sense. None of it made sense. Even feeling hidden energies did not make sense neither did the underlying words, the messages in between.
To unsee what I am seeing is not possible. To not know what I know is also impossible.
I cannot drag myself around pretending I do not know what I know. The energies of everything-these energies dragged me down my whole life. At the age 10-15 I was already worried about what I was eating, what air I was breathing, and what was around me. I was getting messages from bugs about what I would put into the air, and what harm it was causing.
The pettiness, the wanting to be there, but not there, lies in between the sheets.
What is happening is we live in a society full of cover ups. And me among many others have been gifted with visions of the future.
We waste time getting involved with situations, people and events because it's a distraction from where the real pain lies.
We are so full of hurt and suffering that we cannot see straight, feel straight and open to the truth.
When we decide to let go of the true suffering, it is when we are able to open our hearts and our lives up. When we decide that we have heaven on earth and those who are uplifting humanity are being treated poorly and unfairly we begin to lose hope.
What are we without it?
What is there to have hope and faith for if we have lost our way?
GOD is guiding us every single moment of the day.
He is opening the truth up to our eyes.
He has given us faith.
He asks us to have faith in him.
Where do we start GOD?
Leave all your worldly possessions behind as they will not serve in the gates of heaven.
Choose to walk to walk out of the devil’s den, as in each moment we do have a choice. WE have to choose salvation over suffering. There are always angels that will come to your aid, when you need them the most.
I am one of those angels. Long ago I lost hope, I lost my boundaries, my voice was lost, my heart had been broken, my self was not whole. And so when I opened my doors to those in need I was hurt, I was crushed, I was abused. I was neglected. So in that choice I had to walk a new path. I had to see GOD for myself.
I had to learn by faith what it was to be a shaman. What it was to be a healer, what is to be psychic, what it was to be a medium, what it was to emanate love. LOVE
WHAT IS LOVE?
Love is the space in between where there is no pain, no lies, no room for games, no trust issues, no false paradigm, no empty.
LOVE is whole and complete.
LOVE IS everywhere you look.
BUT LOVE IS not just kindness, love is strength knowing when to walk away when all is lost, and the old needs to move on.
LOVE is also vulnerability knowing when to ask for help, and how, and opening up to our true feelings.
Most people don't know how to love correctly, love themselves or another.
GOD did not teach me this. My shamanic path did.
Shamanism is what saved me, and brought me closer to GOD.
When God asks me what my faith is. It's me GOD. I am my faith, I am my hope and I am my miracle.
I see miracles happen everyday, in every way. Amongst all the chaos and the pain. I see massive miracles.
I know I have the power to create miracles. I know I am a miracle. That GOD chose me to walk and be in a certain way. I have no idea what means or how that will end up, but more than saving humanity this is about saving ourselves.
HOW can we save ourselves?
In each moment we have a choice, to walk into faith and trust and know that GOD has created us to live in Bliss and Harmony with this new world that we are seeking and know that it is available.
GOD did not create human kind to suffer. HE gave his only son to suffer for us.
So how do we read signs from GOD?
GOD is watching us, all the time. In every moment we can choose to wake up to the hell we are living and why we are living it, and make a choice to be happy, or we can choose a life of what GOD is offering for us.
The thing is we have to leave our past behind. And many are not able to do this? Many can’t see that living in GOD’s light is what he has chosen for us.
Many of us are so stuck in the old 3D matrix paradigm, that we must work hard to make a living, that we must suffer as we chose to marry this person so it will work out, we must live this life our parents or adults chose for us.
When we can’t even see the truth, it’s challenging to see the truth in each moment. Each moment has a truth. EAch moment has a lesson but most can't read signs or energies.
They can’t see how they make themselves let alone others suffer in their behavior.
Most are so entrapped within their own lies and false beliefs that the truth is scary.
They can’t see the world is dying, the world is about to turn itself over again. That the energy they are creating is part of the problem and not the solution.
We don’t see that the earth will not stand for this, won’t stand for the way we have hurt her. Just as us women won’t stand for it anymore.
The way people are having to change and shift and open up to their truth and true self.
Yes, women are on the rise. Women are the way seekers, but women need a divine masculine to hold them up, hold them accountable and push them to succeed in the direction of their heart.
Women are the way of the light, the men just need to open themselves up to this energy and let them lead the way.
When women come together for a major transformational shift to shift the world we are changing the paradigm of energy for the entire city and helping the collective rise out of the fear of the old.
God you ask me to have faith and yet you take away things that make me immobile, what I am to do, but to write. So here I am writing. All this writing to have faith in what? You are an almighty God who I feel has turned his back on me.
You have asked me to share what I know so what is it that you want me to share? As this journey has left me without any means necessary to create money.
Without my gifts of healing how else I am here to serve the world
I am a writer, you say. You ask me to write and therefore I am, but what is it that you want me to share?
How do I make the world understand what I cannot show as one human being? I am just one soul placed here on this planet to hear the bleeding souls.
You have taken away my identity, you have taken away my car, you have taken away my soul in this journey to come back to you all so I could write. What am I writing, and who am I writing to.
God I am so very thankful for you in my life, thank you for helping me understand all these energies.
Thank you for opening my eyes to the unseen world. Thank you for your patience and grace.
Thanks for helping me to understand so much that I cannot see.
Thank you for delivering the right people to me everyday.
Thank you for always supporting me.